Mylene...
is trying to shake the blues.
is listening to "Vultures" by John Mayer.
is not deaf, not blind, and not stupid.
wants to go back to badminton... *smash!*
is being tested.
wants to "brat" around.
is blah blah.
is masked... can you feel it from there?
And then she questions the sun
Why, why me?
The sun doesn't answer
Oh God, can you help me
The answer is easy my love
You've built your own jail
You've always been part of the sky
So why d'you keep staying by his side
Away from me
"Dove"
Moony
As usual, Sally and I were chatting last night. She's thrilled to tell me that while she was driving home, she saw a shooting star. Shortly after that, she bought her dinner (if I remember it right) and got a free fortune cookie. It said,
"A shooting star tonight will bring you good luck tomorrow."We were both amazed. I'm excited to know what luck she's gonna get. Then she said, "What a coincidence!" And for a split second there, I just realized something and replied to her:
"Coincidence is also there for a reason."Dontcha think?
John Bridger: I feel so optimistic. How do you feel?
Charlie Croker: [shrugging] I'm fine.
John Bridger: Fine? You know what "fine" stands for, don't you?
Charlie Croker: Yeah, unfortunately.
John Bridger: Freaked out...
Charlie Croker: Insecure...
John Bridger: Neurotic...
Charlie Croker: And Emotional.
John Bridger: You see those columns behind you?
Charlie Croker: [looks behind him and sees the pillars] What about them?
John Bridger: That's where they used to string up thieves who felt fine.
Charlie Croker: After you.
The Italian Job
2003
Have you seen anything so adorable? I would've loved her so much if she were mine.
Cola Can dogs really sense drama? Tutti suddenly sat beside me on the sofa and licked my ear... aaaawwww....
Anyway, I just got home coming from the graveyard shift and decided to login having this urge to blog. I just remembered what I told Sally last night during one of our DAILY chats...
Me: "Don't you just wish you know EVERYTHING so that you'll pretty much know what to do and that what you're going to do is the right thing?"Then again, where's the fun in that....
Sally: "Haaaaaaaay"
Me: "Haaaaaaay"
One of the toughest things in life is to be matured. It will always have this "easier said than done" line tagging along. Just as what I have been "called to do" for some time now. Needless to say, I'm currently in a situation I don't want to be in. I was in denial that it has gotten overwhelming-- since I know I will need to blame myself for that as well.
One work night, I took my uneasy self for a 30-minute "me time" walk outside of the office. With either arms folded or hands in my pocket, I silently ranted and breathed heavily, hoping it will help get this burden out of my system. Then I resorted to asking the "how's". How do I graciously pass through this phase? How do I best deal with this? How do I accept?
*Sigh*
So here I am turning to writing for outlet. Everything's obviously not yet okay. Maybe I need a longer "Me time" to figure things out? I don't know. But what I do know is that this will pass. I've done it before; I can do it again. Right now, I'm taking baby steps and having prayers for each.
And if my friends would please respect, this is something I don't want to expound further, as least for now. I'm sorry for implanting curiosity. Please save the questions and know that I appreciate your concern and prayers with all my heart. *hugs*
For Good
OST - Broadway Musical "Wicked"
(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
(Glinda):
Because I knew you
(Both):
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
(Glinda):
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
(Elphaba):
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda):
And because I knew you...
(Elphaba):
Because I knew you...
(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...
Okay so I got tagged hehe. Here goes...
1. I'm generally not a snob even if my face sometimes says so.
2. Self-sufficiency is one of my strengths. I like to think that I can survive anywhere.
3. I don't have a sweet tooth. I despise caramel most of all.
4. I'm a big fan of hugs. I think they're better than cheek-to-cheeks.
5. I won't make a good player in any ballgame-- I don't know how to catch. Haha. Yeah, pathetic.
6. I love Legos and jigsaw puzzles. That might be where I developed my skills for picking up clues and putting them together.
7. Part of my daily rituals is playing with my dogs before I go to sleep.
8. Sketching relaxes me. It's my mental-block reliever.
9. I've always believed in "It's not where you are- it's who you're with."
10. I like mismatches and twists with my outfits. Matching colors usually bore me.
11. I'd rather wait than get ditched. Charge per minute applies.
12. A good looking guy will not make my cut if he has no sense of humor.
13. I hate planning. The word itself makes me go "ugh!"
14. I'm still dreaming of Santorini. And someone to take me there is not a bad idea at all.
15. Invisibility is my superpower. Whether I like it or not.
16. Number 1 on my wish list is a nice surprise :-)
