Becoming Jon

It was too dark for 6am because of the storm. We were heading to PhilAm Valero exit when we had this conversation:

   Jon: "...walang pasok today kasi signal number 5..."

   Me: "ah signal no. 5 ba?"

   Jon: (laughs) "hinde joke lang. wala namang signal number 5 no!"


WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING???

Belle

My Stars
vol 1 issue 1

I call her "Belle" not because she's pretty (as she herself claims), but because she has "tililing". Hehe... peace Belle! But she's the cutest naman of all the abners. Not to mention - great hair ha. I've always envied that. She's got great taste for clothes, bags, shoes - anything! OK Belle, is this enough feeding of your vanity? I just love this cutie, not only because she always brings her camera with her, but simply because she's around. Even if I don't see her often, just knowing that she's in the office tells me that I have someone to share my thoughts with, especially if it's "panlalait" - where she got her Ph.D. title for. Bawal magkamali! She's such a fun gal and a bully too but always gets away with it with just a smile, or 'beautiful eyes', or a demure laugh... hmm teka, demure laugh? Marunong ka ba non? Hehe... of all my encounters with the "oh perfect one", these are some of the most memorable... Mean: On a friendster stranger who wants to add her: "...tignan mo sha! Squattery!" Sweet: About herself that is: "you love me! you really love me!" Not much of a brat: She would pout to beg for food and she'll make you spoonfeed her with it! Who can dare surpass the majesty of this cute little vain brat? Two words - NO ONE! Luv you Belle!!!

"If I were to pick someone who'd fall in love with me, I'd pick this guy... coz' I'd surely love him."

That's It! I've Had It!

When I went to church last Sunday, I was praying for God to give me more strength because today, I put a stop to hope. Today, I start accepting the things I cannot change. Maybe it's the price I have to pay for having a pretty strong personality. That's just exactly who I am and I refuse to change it. Even if it means that no matter how much I want it, I just don't get the kind of comfort that others do. I end up asking what makes me different that I don't get what they get.

I began to examine myself last week. I've been reacting to things negatively. I've been also afraid that I might do a third plunge then I-know-what-happens-next. I told myself that I cannot stay like this. It's what I really want right now more than anything but I have to wake up and face reality. So for the nth time, I'm saying "STOP" for my own good. I know it's not gonna go anywhere so why continue it? I'd rather prevent more trouble than dare myself again to endure it.

Then again, I still find myself blessed for our friendship. Other people would even want to be in my shoes right now. And that's something I have to be thankful for... something that I'd like to take good care of. God knows how good this person is - so worthy of admiration and so worthy of good friends and moreover, so worthy of a great lifetime partner. Unfortunately, reality says I am not her.

So I hide for a while and be content with what I have. I know that God will give me someone who's worth the long wait...



MILLION MILES AWAY

I'd love to make you mine
'Cause it's the only way to hold you
In my wild imagination
Still I don't know how
To grab a chance and spend some time
In just a simple conversation

Just give it a try
Though I'm not chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know
That it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
People love you as you are
You're a million miles away from me

I wish that you were here
Coz it's illusions everytime you're close to me
And sing my love songs
And it's the only way
I could tell the world I love you
Although you're a million miles away

Just give it a try
Though I'm not chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know
That it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
You're a star
You're a star

Just give it a try
Though I'm not chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know
That it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
You're a star
You're a star
You're a million miles away from me

First Day...

First day of work without

Mother Goose! Come baaaaack!!!

My Stars

My Stars

I'm going to take some time to cut the blog about me and start paying simple tribute to my stars... sino naman yon??? ...my PS friends of course! The very reason why I still choose this company. I may not enjoy the work all the time, but I do enjoy the people I work with. (aaaaaww)

Watch out for the first issue... the brat who invented "Vanity"...

My measure of a good training class is when I see my students learn and enjoy at the same time.

Today, I had one of the best training classes I've ever handled. I was only teaching two people - Jon and Tin. The topic covered is not my area of expertise. So I got so anxious that I had to cut sleep short to just two hours and go to work really early to do some more preparations. And well enough, it paid off. It was not the traditional class where I would just deliver the lecture and do demos and stuff. It was a workshop-based type of training (thanks to Tasha). I had my students discuss some parts of the lesson and do hands-on activity. It was freezing cold in training room 5 but they were focused on their work - or is it "contest"? - that they started not noticing it... and they almost didn't go back to work. Hehehe. Guys, awat na ok?

And I quote Jon, "This is the best training I've ever been to."

And I did enjoy it too. Love' this class! :o)




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MGA SABLAY HIRIT...

"Well well well. Look do we have here!"
"Let's give them a big hand of applause."
"The more the manyer."
"It's a no-win-win situation."
"Burn the bridge when you get there."
"Anulled and void."
"Mute and academic."
"C'mon let's join us!"
"If worse comes to shove."
"Are you joking my leg?"
"It's not my problem anymore, it's your problem
anymore."
"What are friends are for?"
"You can never can tell."
"Been there, been that."
"Forget it about it."
"Give him the benefit of the daw."
"It's a blessing in the sky."
"Right there and right then."
"Where'd you came from?"
"Take things first at a time."
"You're barking at the wrong dog."
"You want to have your cake and bake it too."
"First and for all."
"Now and there."
"I'm only human nature."
"The sky's the langit."
"That's what I'm talking about it."
"One of these days is not like the other."
"So far, so good, so far."
"Time is of the elements."
"In the wink of an eye."
"The feeling is actual."
"For all intense and purposes."
"I ran into some errands."
"Hi. I'm , what's yours?"
"What is the world is coming to?"
"What is the next that is?"
"Get the most of both worlds."
"Bahala na sila sa mga batman nila."
"Whatever you say so."
"ZZZBase-to-base casis."
"My answers have been prayered."
"Please me alone!"
'It's as brand as new."
"So... what's a beautiful girl like you?...."
"I can't take it anymore of this!"
"Are you sure ka na ba?"
"Can't you just cut me some slacks?"

ETO PA....

1. I couldn't care a damn!
2. What's your next class before this?(ANO DAW???!!!)
3. Nothing in this world is perfect except the word "change".
4. Can you repeat that for the second time around once more from the top?(ulitin natin hanggang mamatay tayo!)
5. My dad brought home a lot of hand-me-downs! Translation: Daming pasalubong ng tatay ko.)
6. Standard and Chartered Bank
7. I'm very iterated!!! (transalation: galit sya! haha!)
8. I'm sorry, my boss just passed away. translation: kakadaan lang ng boss nya.)
9. Hello, my boss is out of town. Would you like to wait?
10. What happened after the erection of Mayon Volcano?
11. Don't touch me not!
12. Hello?... For a while, please hang yourself...
13. Its spilled milk under the bridge.
14. Don't change anything! Keep it at ease.
15. Hello McDo? Mag-i-inquire lang ako kung magkano ang kidney meal? (yung pang-batang pagkain)
16. You!!! You're not a boy anymore! You're a man anymore! (coach?! coach?!)
17. Out of fit ako these days eh... translation: di sya nakakapag-exercise)
18. Come, lets join us!
19. Bring down the house down!
20. I'm the world champion of the World!!!
21. Beneath the Belt!
22. Rule of Hand...(thumb yata ibig sabihin...)
23. Can you repeat it once again?
24. Mukhang haggard-looking.
25. Do you have more brighter ideas?
26. Halatang obvious naman yata.

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Jon had a look of thoughtfulness on his face for a while. He finally asked, "Is she going to have more children?"

Before we had a chance to respond, his twin brother Mike shot back this answer: "No! She can't. She already had them. It's like chicken pox. Once you get them, you can't get them again."


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The Last Time I Felt Like This

Hello, I don't even know your name, but I'm hopin' all the same
this is more than just a simple hello.
Hello, do I smile and walk away? No, I think I'll smile and stay
to see where this might go.

'Cause the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
falling and feeling I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this was long before I knew
what I'm feeling now with you.

Hello, I can't wait till we're alone, somewhere quiet on our own
so that we can fall the rest of the way.
I know that before the night is thru, I'll be talking love to you,
meaning ev'ry word I say.

'Cause the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
falling and feeling I'd nev-er fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this was long before I knew
what I'm feeling now with you.

Oh, the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
falling and feeling I'd never fall in love a-gain.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
what I'm feeling now with you.

Oh, the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
falling and feeling I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
what I'm feeling now with you.

This just in from Jo. Another one of my "Kids"...


LOVING IN SILENCE

Afraid to fall in love...there was a time in my life when I became afraid to fall in love. Because every time I fell in love, I got hurt. I thought maybe that's why it's called falling in love. I would give my all, loving deeply and wholeheartedly. It would be a truly emotional and euphoric experience. I would be dreaming about the object of my affection day and night, imagining good times together, thinking of what I can do or buy for him to show how much I care. I would feel light, energized and excited, blooming with the happiness I feel inside. Then somehow, something would go wrong and my whole world crash.

Disappointment...Resentment...Anger...Pain? Why? Can we not love without feeling pain? Is it really a price to pay for all the happiness we feel when we're in love? It was only after many years of soul searching and reading inspirational writings that I realized that we could love without getting hurt. Only recently did I understand what unconditional love is all about. Love is one of the most powerful forces in the universe. It is the fire that burns inside, the essence of being. It is a precious gift that defines our purpose in life. If we keep in mind that we can indeed preserve its true meaning, we can love to the fullest and be truly happy.

Accept the fact that other people express their love differently. How do you express love? You say, "I love you three times a day.? You kiss and embrace as often as you can. You never forget anniversaries. You always prepare his favorite dishes. How does he express love? He rarely says, "I love you? He seldom kisses you. He forgets your birthday and he doesn't know how to cook. But he works overtime, walks the dog, takes out the garbage, takes you to the movies and calls you "Honey? He probably loves you more than you can imagine. He just shows it differently. If you can accept that then you will have a healthier perspective of your relationship.

Derive happiness from giving love. When you love, do it because you want to. Just give it. And cherish the satisfaction in having given someone something of yourself. It's like giving a gift whether it is appreciated or not, find happiness in simply giving. Love without expecting anything in return. Pain comes in when you demand something in return for the love you give. You are setting yourself up for disappointment. Love cannot always be reciprocal. Love between two people can never be of the same intensity at the same time and place. No matter how much your partner loves you, she will never fill all your needs all the time. And you will be waiting in misery forever, if you believe you should love only when you are sure to receive equal love in return.

Love now. The past is gone and the future is just a dream. All of yesterday's aches and pains, as well as the loves and laughter, are mere memories. Let them go. Fantasies and worries are for a future that may never come. Don't dwell on them. Live now. Give love now. Do it and enjoy it now. Throw away those destructive habits. When you insist upon yourself always have to be in control, that you always have to be right that others must always please you, you put yourself in a very tight spot. Loving relationships are flexible. Dynamic and evolving. Leave room now for a change interaction. Allow for new behavior and learning experiences. When we welcome these in our lives, we open ourselves to sharing more love and affection and less frustration and pain.

Yes, you will say unconditional love is easier said than done. Especially when we have always believed that love is give and take. But believe that love is simply giving. And you will be surprised that a lot of it, even more, actually comes back to you. Love is a gift. If you're given this gift, try to appreciate it and share it with others. If you haven't received it yet, do not be in a hurry to love somebody...because GOD is still wrapping that special gift for you.

Baguio... can't wait

Can hardly wait for Baguio.

This is my favorite picture of us - Me, Karen (eldest sis), Tita Carol, Megan, Irene (youngest sis) and Mama - in Baguio taken on July 28, 2003 at the Camp John Hay Manor and it was just my first time in Baguio. Can you believe it? My first time there?! How pathetic can I get... Oh well, we're going back there come early July... yeeehaaa!



Ninoy, Me and Megan

Was Out On Weekends...

Subic Weekend Getaway

ako ang totoong Mowdel dito

After a month of anxiously planning the trip, and a month after booking Jon too, we pushed through with our out-of-town trip to Subic. It was fun amidst the frustrating downpour... harsh! gusto ko pa naman magka-tan lines! Almost everyone who're supposed to come was there. Tsok wasn't able to join though. And guess what! Where is Jonathan??? Texted him in the morning and lunchtime but I got no answer. We slept while waiting for him and when I woke up at around 7:30pm, I had 2 missed calls. Prior to seeing his name, I knew it was him. And I thought, "That's it! I'm not going to speak with him anymore!!!" I'd rather deal with people being late than not coming at all. Tin-Tin had spoken with Jon while the rest of us were asleep and it turns out, he has a valid reason. At 9pm, he texted me to say sorry and ask for pasalubong...kaya eh hehe.

So we spent the entire weekend eating, taking pictures, shopping, and chatting about Jon. In short, "buhay baboy". Just the fact that my friends were there - Bel, Tin, Garv and Ayn - makes it fun, regardless of the weather.

"O, kita nyo naman tuloy ah... shempre ako nag-plano eh!"





Christine's Magnificent Send Off

We had a crazy party at Christine's place last Saturday. She's going to leave in 2 weeks for Fairbanks, Alaska where she'll be settling down with her fiance, Chad. So we had a super fun three-themed party (Bridal Shower, Birthday and Christmas). It was also emotional. Everyone, except for Christine, was crying even at the start of it. Christine, as appreciative as she is, definitely loved the surprise. Her favorite part of it was the scrapbook gift.

After the party, we went to Alabang Town Center and shopped a bit, and then had a great dinner at Skyline Vivere, overlooking Alabang and Laguna de Bay - simply the best!



Vivere


Afterwards, we stayed overnight at Karen Yu's place in Makiling Greenheights, Calamba, Laguna. She's got a really nice place and a spectacular view of the mountain. We strolled around the village with Christine, Mama Bhey and Josie. The houses there are gorgeous - cottages, country style houses, victorian, etc. And houses there don't have numbers. They got names.

At 10:45am, we went swimming -- wiiiii! At long last! Tan lines!!!! But it rained too after about an hour of sunshine but it's OK. And it's my first time to wear a swim suit :oP can you believe that? We left for Manila at 4pm. I was riding with Bambi, Christine and Liza. We were chatting non-stop. Mother Goose is so much fun to be with. She's really cool and she's easy to please. If she's a really nice boss, she so much nicer as a friend. We're going to miss her a lot.